I point this out not to give you the heebie jeebies about all "those thoughts" you had, or those secret feelings you thought were being kept safe inside. There is probably little to nothing you have felt or thought that isn't quite simply part of the human condition. No need to lose sleep over those things.
What I would dearly love to prompt in you is an altogether different awareness. If I may, please consider the following regarding the impact you are constantly having. Every fleeting moment of happiness, gratitude, amazement, inspiration, triumph, amusement, joy, spontaneity, reverence, upliftment, affection, tenderness, compassion, ardor, passion, forgiveness, freedom, hope, faith, charity, benevolence, generosity, trust, self acceptance, patience, kindness, mischievousness, insightfulness, sensuality, celebration, remembrance, resonance . . . these things are what your wake primarily consists of. These feelings and expressions are what you are constantly donating to Life at Large. Because these aspects can be fleeting, they easily do not register as a gift you are both receiving and giving. Anything we judge in ourselves (think black robes, a scowl, a gavel and sitting up above us looking down), we tend to give a huge amount of heft and attention.
If only we knew, REALLY knew, what good we constantly wrought. Well, the water knows and it spreads what we donate far and wide, and that is a good thing. Never underestimate what those droplets are up to.